I can be in a bad mood and a song can change it. On the contrary, too. I might get confused and unexplained anxiety if I listen to blues music ... or music that recalls the difficult times in my life.
This morning the bus was late and I was tackled by a man, so I dropped both purse with my nice computer and my whole Bible skin cover.
I think it is SUPER IMPORTANT to smile and say hello to the bus driver. No matter how badly he looks. I always make it. And they shine in 95% of cases up and something comes on in their eyes. For the thousands of people drive around this town and the majority do not see them even in the eyes. The only time they get any attention is when something goes wrong. Then they bark out of the ordinary to escape his inner dissatisfaction and frustration.
It's not okay., It is never okay to take things out on strangers.
I do too. Sometimes. When I am sur / tired / frustrated. Then I can not keep it inside, it just wallowing like some sort of bitter cunt in the bottle.
Today was one of those days, it was hysterical lot of people at the bus stop and all crowded to make room on the bus and it was so full that people were not of their stops and panicked and pushed to get out.
It hurt, it was sweaty, it was heavy to carry and hard to stand. And claustrophobic. And the brave bus driver had a turban and shouted in broken.
Just that people see a turban in public transport makes the stress level increased by one thousand percent.
When it lightened and became more air on the bus, a girl came and push past me in the aisle. Just because, there was maybe something in the back seat. I was so fucking pissed.
she was bothering me When it just stopped being so awkward?!
I sighed heavily.
Just then a song was singing in my headphones and suddenly I realized that I was standing with my shoulders tightly cramped up. So I took a breath and let them down.
Thought that "obviously, it is not a problem for me to move a little bit. Course you want to sit, ok! Fine you're welcome."
Long ago when my older friend wanted to sign in on a children's program, I called in and voted him, you had to hear an automated message.
It said, "Thank you for your vote. My motto in life is: You're never bigger than your smallest problem."
That quote has followed me through thick and thin through life actually.
YOU ARE NOT BIGGER THAN YOUR SMALL PROBLEM.
To that I add that it is okay to be small. Tiny sometimes. But one should still remember what you're doing. Making a reality check if disturbed longer thank you hoped.
Yes, but what I really wanted to say with this posts was that you should listen to good music and say hello to the bus driver and the counter at the store.
It means soooo much. Believe me!
Hugs, Lauren♥
